Heavy Heart, Light Heart

My heart has been heavy these past few months on the desire God has put in my heart. God has designed me to be a mother and I am the mother to two of the most amazing little babies and God has blessed me with the desire to raise another child to be a mother to a child to teach them about their loving Savior their heavenly Father. Sometimes when I am so busy and consumed with motherly duties I literally stop and ask God why He has laid such a strong desire on my heart, I ask how can I do it physically, mentally, financially and that is when my heart becomes heavy. BUT God has answered me every time I ask. He has told me that it's not about me, its about a little one out there that needs a family, a child that needs to be lead to the Savior. My heart becomes light when I think about another face sitting at breakfast or playing chase through the house, learning to share with their siblings, and fighting at the same time. I smile when I think that our home will be filled with another small voice whether laughing or crying. So my heart is heavy because I don't know where my baby is but my heart is light because my Father knows. Our journey begins to another baby...