Although the tears have dried up (well sorta) and I have assurance from my Savior my heart still cries. Everyday I pray for a little one to enter into our life. I haven't given up hope on my own body either but as the months pass sometimes hope fades, still present but faint. God's faithfulness will never be short of magnificent and I see it everyday, I'm so connected to this blog world that I have found so many wonderful inspiring stories. One that has touched me deeply is a women who just lost her husband after he fell from a tree stand while hunting, many of you know why this would affect me so after many of the men in my life spend the majority of their time in the woods but she is a true soldier of Christ, they adopted a little girl months before this tragedy and to see her blog post everyday, how she has to move forward one step at a time with this little girl that will never remember her daddy and the hurt that pours from them yet always ends with such positivity amazes me. I try but I fail miserably at times, it gets dark, lonely, and cold but the sun will still rise and set as it always does and that is what I thank God for today. Just being here, being alive with the ones that are in my life right now in the present.
This is the day the Lord hath made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!
One of my favorite songs from vacation Bible school, all the memories as I sing that chorus brings pure happiness, at a time when nothing hurt but scraped knees and lost dolls, now the hurt is so much deeper; a scraped heart and lost children.
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