it's always been there

At the Easter service I heard something I never heard before. I have read and reread the Easter story since I was little and never before have I seen my name in those verses. Jesus said to her "Ashley" (John 20:16)
 Jesus is calling me back, in His gentle yet firm voice as I imagine it would be "Stop weeping, I am here! Do not come without hope like Mary. For My love for you exceeds the love you have for a child." AMAZING! That's it, keep calling me, keep my attention focused on you, keep me near.

 Jesus Appears to Mary Magdalene 
John 20:11-16
 ¹¹ Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb ¹² and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot.  ¹³ They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?”
   “They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I don’t know where they have put him.” ¹⁴ At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus.
 ¹⁵ He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?”
   Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”
 ¹⁶ Jesus said to her, “Mary.”
   She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”).



Today April 26 I refuel and start my prayers for another birth mother.